Poems

**ItsGettingMessi** · 04-27-2013, 09:51 PM

The darkness is closing in
I am finally paying for my sin
I can feel deaths cold embrace
I can clearly see his white face
He invites me to peace
But my old life must cease
Never again will I see her
But I cannot stir
Never will she be my wife
Forever will I be from her life
Yet this time I feel no remorse
There is no way to change my course
So I take his hand
And as such I join deaths band

She is the sun in my eye
The one whom I will love
Forever until I die
She is my perfect dove

I can’t change the way I feel
She is the perfect drug
I will love her but she’ll
Never feel my hug

For she has it set in her mind
That I am one who is to divine
To be the one to hold her hand
But this must be a sign

That I don’t deserve to live
For she is the only one for me
And without her I cannot thrive
I would be so lost I could not see.

Sadly her mind is set
And there is nothing I can do
So I stand her friend, yet
My love will always remain true

One day she might be
The person who I wed
But until then I will always be up until three
Crying over her in my bed

I wake up with hope
I sleep with tears
There is no way I can cope
I must face these deadly fears

I have loved you with all my heart
But I have been met with disdain
I cannot tell my emotions apart
There is just to much pain

I don’t know if you care
But you are the one I love
Every time I see you I have to stare
You are all I kind think of

The moon once had no compare
Then I saw you in my sight
and I felt like there was no air
The feelings are to hard to fight

I never told you this before
But you are all I could ever need
Sadly this love will never sore
So my eyes shall forever bleed

One day maybe you will be mine
But I know you do not care
That I think of you as divine
This kind of life I can’t bear

So as the tears flow
I will keep my feelings bestowed
Upon myself, and take each blow
And shoulder all the extra load

And slowly shall I die inside
Feeling as if my life is for naught
Remembering of every night I cried
And all the pain seeing you has brought

no matter what i do
ill never be good enough for you
i do my best to try
but all my hopes just die
i wish that you could see
that i could just maybe
be that one guy
that will always be by your side
no matter what
you ever do, but
this just me standing
and talking here handing
all my love four you
hoping that my dream may come true
but all the efforts will be in vain
these feelings are driving me insane
they will drive me to my death
i can already feel my last breath
there has been so much pain wrought
to much sad thought
i have been here for so long
I feel like i'm trapped in a siren's song
i cant get out
i am to filled with doubt
i can never be over this love
even when i'm in the sky above
you are the one for me
i am just waiting for you to see
girl, i'll be the one to hold you forever
but that chance will come never

The day’s rays finally peak
Yet here we still speak
I know how this will end
Eternity without you I shall spend
I just wish I could have one more touch
And go back to when we loved each other so much
But now that ring is coming off your finger
Here I know you shall not linger
You will leave before the nights end
These feelings someone cannot mend
Now the nights shall grow long
Without out you to share in the nights song
I wish I could make you come back
Without you my days will be black
So I am standing here trying not to cry
As all the memories flow by
I thought that we would always be together
And now forever turns into never
Now I see you leave
There is so much for me to grieve
For even now you are the one I love
But I have to watch you fly away like a dove

Everyone can laugh like it’s a joke
But to many feelings will evoke
From that joke and cause so much pain
Yet still they talk and will not refrain
I stand and take the punishment
They don’t realize all the treatment
That words like theirs have caused me to get
They leave me falling into a pit
One that I myself have dug
They lay me down like a rug
And think it is funny to step over me
They will never believe what I see
So I sit in the corner and cry
Until my eyes are finally dry
While my mind goes end over end
Making me feel as if I’m condemned
To live a life as this
It would surely not be a miss
If I were to disappear
And never can my head be clear
I hope for this to one day change
But until then I will arrange
These lines and think
Wait until I can finally drink
The substance that makes me sleep
And take me to my dreams so deep
But until then the pain will not cease
And never shall I know peace

You must think you’re so big
Because you can put someone down
But you should know you are a clown
And are like a filthy pig

Everyone knows how you act
And those who like you
Are scared of what you can do
But im not like that, that’s a fact

You can come at me
But I will not refrain
And not let you cause pain
Because I am here to set others free

We have all had enough
There is no one who you can trust
Soon you will be dust
Because without words, you aren’t tough

You may look strong
But all you are is a weak bully
And no one trusts you fully
With the way you are, you don’t have long

Those others will turn their backs
When you are in trouble
Making all the problems double
You will feel like you’ve been hit by an axe

While you think I got just what you deserve
I am the guardian of others
Each of them is my brother
None others have had this nerve

So let’s see what you are made of
So others can see how you fall
No one will see you se tall
Now get out of here before I take off my glove

The water falls swiftly
Like a diving bird
And I lay here thinking deeply
All of it so absurd

To think that one such as me
Could be with someone like you
It’s like a desert sea
If only you could have these feelings too

Lightning flashes across the sky
And so to do memories in my mind
Each one flying by
I don’t see how I could have been so blind

How many times was I rejected
Even with all the emotions I poured
And how much you neglected
My feelings making me pierced by a sword

The rain seems to never stop
Both outside, and from my eyes
I just wish I could top
And be better than all the other guys

The sun shall never shine
Not while I see you with others
But yet I have to confine
All these feelings, as you go to another

The clouds are dark
And such is my life
For you can not see that spark
That we have, so I cry

The rain is muffled by my sobs
My life feels completely loss
Like I now longer have a job
And I am hanging on a cross

Finally sleep closes in
And we are together
Our parents now both kin
And it is like that forever

A bird can weave a beautiful song
A spider can enchant you with a web
But none of them can hold my view like you
There has never been one as fair as you
Never one to match your compassion
Men fall at your feet for you
Myself included in those
For though you do not love me
The price is worth the wait
For I could wait a hundred lives
To have a moment or two with you
I would die for one moment under the sky
Or kill for a lifetime by your side
Never again shall a person like you live
And never shall I live until I can hold you
So close and never have to let go
Until the beating of my heart comes to a close
That is the kind of life I would want
One where I am all that you ever need
I could care not of how we fared
Nor where we lived
Because with you by me
We would prosper everywhere
But what am I than another man
At the feet of queen so fair
Hoping that she may listen to my words
And come to love them as I do her
But I fear that I shall be rejected
And tossed out of her sight forever
Spend the rest of my days dreaming
About the one girl who got away

I can feel the teeth setting in
Forcing me to the ground
With every second, another tooth is set
And there is nothing I can do against it
Even if I yell out
There can be no help
If I try to fight back
It just makes it worse
Its hunger deepens when the night falls
Making the animal much more ferocious
Daylight comes, yet it is not sated
Everyday it requires more and more
I continue to cry out
But no one can help
These demons are my own to carry
But I can’t cry out
For what would others think
When they see why I am bit by these teeth
As the days grow
My energy wanes
I cant escape the vice
No matter what I do
I guess these bites will stay
And never be gone until I’m gone

I have stood here for quite awhile
Solemnly, with a warming smile
But my time has come to move
It’s time for me to tell you all you’ve
Done to me and my heart
So I guess this is my start
You act like I’m dead
Until a problem enters your head
And what can I do
But help you
And hope that you could be my love
But there has been a lack thereof
For never have I had a hint
Not even a slight glint
Of my feelings returned
That I feel as if I’ve earned
But why should you care
Since you don’t play fair
Another day passes
But your feelings never surpasses
What it was the earlier
Making my heart even heavier
But it isn’t even your fault
For locking my heart in a vault
So this is my burden to bear
And one that I can not share

Another day goes by
And another guy by your side
Yet still here I solemnly abide
Hoping you don’t notice how much I cry

Each time there is another guy
I wish that could be me
And I was the only one you see
But why should I even try

For who am I compared to Brandon
Or Alec and Zach
I just cant keep my feeling in track
I might as abandon

All of my feelings
And try for another
Just as you go to another
For our feelings have already reached the ceiling

I wish I could be them
And hold you close
Watch how our feelings grows
For you are the greatest gem

These feelings are to strong
But you shouldn’t care
For I’ll never be like they are
Yet I shall always go along

And act like I am fine
But slowly die inside
And I will keep on hide
My tears as the sun no longer shines

Just go for the next one
And I will be here
With all my tears
That will never be done

I could fulfill your fantasy
If only you would come with me
But yet there you stand
Refusing to just take my hand
Denying me this one pleasure
My love is one that none can measure
But it means nothing if it is one sided
Just simply being divided
And not allowed to be free
Because only I am the one who can see
What it would become
But slowly I must succumb
To the poison of doubt in my mind
Soon it will take over if you cannot find
The passions that I so desire
To allow for our love to soar so much higher
But I guess it will stay dead on the ground
Where I may never be found

I could write you a melody
And hope that you fall for me steadily
I could say all the good
And for all that you stood
But I can’t change your mind
Nor force you to find
The feelings that I want to see
One of only me
But I am a mere man who can do little for you
Except love you very true
You wouldn’t have to look for any other guy
But sadly love is something you can’t buy
I could give you all that you want
And you would never have to hunt
For anything else in your life
For it would be free of strife
But alas my life shall never be complete
I shall forever be obsolete
Without you by my side
But all these feelings I must hide

It just can’t be fair
Nor can it be right
For having to share
Your feelings every night

But I can laugh it off
Act like I’m fine
Just stifle my emotions with a cough
Look like everything is align

Yet inside I am in pain
Wishing I could hold you
To help keep myself sain
But there is nothing to do

So I force a patient smile
And keep the water back
As my feelings silently hold trial
Working to set me back on track

But I can’t leave this feeling
It is way too real
So I just keep dealing
My love, waiting for my next mental meal

What a strange thing
A dream can bring
From one of running and fun
To those of you burning in the sun
But not all dreams on the same
For you can’t just put them in a single frame
And say this is
How all dreams if his
Will be every time
And just toss it away like a worthless dime
For dreams hold meaning to them
Each one as important as a plant’s stem
They can have many different meanings
Depending on the beings
So just because you have a dream so bad
Doesn’t mean you should feel so sad
And think that you will always have that dream
But instead find a way to fix your seam
So you can get the feelings gone
And look forward cheerfully to the growing dawn

For who can compare to the splendor
Of the looks of one so tender
One who is untouched by sin
To angels this person must be akin
For you can outshine any star
And none can be the same as you are
There is nothing I would love more
Than to watch as our feelings soar
Above the clouds so high
Because you are the only girl in my eye
Some go their whole life
And put up with so much strife
To find like you
To make every single dream come true
Yet the whole thing was for naught
As with what all they fought
For there can ever be one girl so perfect
Because of all the hearts she could affect
So let me hold you close
And see where this feeling goes
For I know something completely irrefutable
Never have a seen a girl more beautiful
Than you always do every day
Forcing me to a lost of what to say
Than to say I hope you see
You are the girl for me

Stranded with my mind again
I have nothing but a page and a pen
So many emotions a can’t start
To write out the feelings in my heart
The thoughts swirl around so fast
I can’t even tell right now what I thought last
But my hand starts to move
Like it has something to prove
The symbols flow letter by letter
Into words that could never be better
As I write, the thoughts grow
But yet they also seem to slow
And all the while they leave
So far away I could not hope for them to retrieve
Visions flow now in my mind
My attention they hoping to find
As I look down the vision is printed
But through words that could only have hinted
To what the feelings I had
Over what could possible drive me this mad
To create this thing with what I had
Yet no one will ever know the feelings it hid
Those words I then part
For to others see it as a piece of art
While to me it used to be a cage
Yet all the while it was nothing but a white blank page

The sun is shining for a new day
Each drop coming down, ray by ray
For the sight of you has casted away the night
And with it any thoughts of fright
To you I have to thank
For now the world does not seem as blank
Now I can see everything so clear
Yet the only thing I can see is so near
The image being one of perfection
But as I look closer for inspection
I realize that it is you
Someone who can make every dream come true
A person who I can spend a life by
The girl that will make me a better guy
The one who I may just love
Until the day I am called above
But right now you are just a friend
A relationship that I have tend
One that I hope to grow like fire
For all others to admire
But before that there is something to be done
Because girl, I hope that you are the one
I can feel my heart bumping
As my pulse starts jumping
Down on one knee, I hope you see
My hand extended and me say, will you go out with me?

I can still hear your voice
Just like you were just with me
Yet I can’t do anything, for it was your choice
I just wish I could hold you so desperately

One more night is all I want
To see your smile
And your image to no longer haunt
me crying all the while

I can still feel your hand
Folded in line with mine
Leaning to feel your lips land
directly on mine, tingling my spine

But then I open my eyes
And I see my hell
Again my heart dies
As I stay trapped in my own cell

Every day is dark as night
Without you by my side
I can no longer feel the light
But it doesn’t matter how hard I fight

You are gone
And i am alone
From dusk to dawn
Feeling my heart turn to stone

That is how it will stay
Yet there is one thing on my mind
All the words I did not say
For I knew that your love you could not find

Goodbye, forever to never see
For your decision to leave
And leave me here sadly
As my heart I try to retrieve